or: Don't stop, can't stop
Actually I didn't think I'd ever start blogging again. Of course I've had phases when i thought about giving up blogging before just because I thoughtI was wastin my energy because no one ever read this blog anyways. This time was a little different. The whole story began, when the last semester started. I took a lot of courses and started a part time job in order to save up money to go Japan. The first few weeks it all worked out quite well. I was busy, but busy in a okay-kinda way. A that time the only reason I didn't blog was because I didn't have a lot of time and didn't feel like it. But things changed. Around the middle of the semester I really went into a deep crisis. I felt like breaking down from stress everyday, day by day it became harder for me to deal with people (i just wanted to be on my own), i couldn't sleep at all and i felt like crying all the time. I woke up in the mornings and went to university, then i studied, then i worked, then I went to bed and fell asleep after 3 or 4 hours. Everyday the same. I turned into a robot...well a depressed robot that is. I even vanished almost completly from all social network sites, which is really abnormal for me. Turned out my thyroid gland (or the 3% that are left of it) decided to give me a hard time again. It really turned into a freak show. I think I hurt and worried a lot of people, and I'm really sorry for that. I found it quite scary myself. Thanks to my parents I somehow managed to cope with the stress, the insomnia and finish the semester (even with very good grades - woot). The semester has been over for a few weeks now, but I kind of needed some time to recharge. I basially did nothing but watching movies and dramas, listening to music and reading books. I'm still not perfectly okay (propbably the hormones are still a little..not the optimum xD), sometimes I still feel horrible and most nights I can't go to sleep easily. But I'm starting to feel alive again. I feel like going out, talking to people and well.... i feel like blogging. Because even though it's a waste of time: I love it. So here I am.
Some news about my life for you:
- A cat that doesn't really belong to us but has been eating at our house in my hometown had babies. In our basement. THEY ARE FRIGGIN ADORABLE.
|super cute little grey cat and horrible bare-faced me xD|
|Uschi (the creepy stalker cat) and her babiiies ^^|
|my favourite <3|
- I'm going to Canada in September with my family. wooooot.
- My best friend from Japan is visiting me in the end of September. Oh yeah :D
- I FINALLY bought white dr. martens and white monster beats hd solo. thank you, part time job! xD